Friday, August 21, 2015

this vacation















This is not Kyle. I got back to the truck on the top of the mountain and turned around and he was standing there. It was too perfect not to shoot!




Tug took this one for you!

this vacation. this vacation was special - totally spontaneous. watching CBS Sunday Morning we saw a story about the mcdonald observatory in fort davis, tx and its stars. oh it's starsI we ooohed and ahhed and wanted to go. two weeks later - on the road - one last adventure before school starts back. what an adventure it was.

on the 7 or so hour drive, the cedar-laden hill country gave way to dry, nearly treeless, scrubby desert landscapes. and mountains. the further west we went, the stranger. more craggy, and taller the mountains became. it was a feast for the eyes - miles and miles and miles of very little that resembled civilization. this was big bend country tho still 100 miles north of the real big bend.

fort davis and the surrounding areas of alpine, marathon and marfa are referred to as 'high desert' with near perfect weather - mid-high 80's during the day and high 60's a night. our first day, we eased into the day with a breathtaking sunrise, coffee in our jackets, dog walking and bike riding in our pajamas and greeting our mooing neighbors through the brush.

we finally ventured out around lunch time and headed to the indian lodge in davis mountains state park. we immediately fell in love as we hiked after lunch. the trail was narrow and rocky and provided little respite from the sun. it was an easy hike, surrounded by grasses, cacti and large, mean-looking ants that we later found out were fire ants when one bit poor banjo. passing under a small copse of trees, the unmistakable call of a hawk rang out just over my head. looking up, i was no more than a dozen feet from a pair of watchfull eyes. down further in the tree, just a few feet from the caller, sat another hawk who we thought was a mother feeding her babies. turns out the sqeaking we heard was the dying call of an unfortunate rodent. a good lesson in the circle of life. . .

after our hike, we promptly checked out of the private campground we had initially reserved and moved, lock stock and barrel over to the state park where we nestled comfortably into the trees, just up from a dry creek bed the boys and dogs took great joy in exploring.

we hiked and drove and gawked and gasped. we visited the fort for whom the town was named and walked around in the rain, learning about grisly medical practices and life before antibiotics and sterilization. we gazed longingly at the big guns and the little guns and the bigger, booming guns (and i use 'we' loosely here.) we drove out to see the fabled 'marfa lights' (i'm a skeptic) and ate ice cream and rode bikes and threw the football. we played jr. monopoly during a thunder storm and napped and walked dogs and walked them some more. we climbed 1/2 way up a mountain, drove up a bigger mountain and threw rocks at a dead tree stump. it was the slow, leisurely pace of vacation. we saw what we wanted to see, but not in much of a hurry.

the absolute highlight of the trip, the reason we went in the first place - those stars. oh my stars!

around 9 on saturday night, we crawled up, up, up the mountain, snaking along with the other headlights and taillights to the very tippy top, to the mcdonald observatory. what awaited us there is beyond compare. i've seen stars in the mountains of north carolina. i've seen stars in back country of vermont. i've seen the southern cross, shivering on a mountainside in quito, ecuador. but i've never seen stars like this. it was more than i could have imagined. when you live near a city, it's easy to forget the milkyway is out there. after a brief talk about the stars and a short tour of a few constellations, we got to walk around (in the complete inky blackness of night, lit only by low red light) and peer into the heavens through high powered telescopes. we saw galaxies 24 million light years away. we saw the swan nebulous that will become a star when we are remembered fondly like the dinosaurs. but the icing on the cake of our evening under the stars was the perfect veiw of saturn through one of the biggest telescopes i've ever seen. we saw saturn and 4 of its moons. let me repeat - we saw saturn. the magnificence of that night will live with me for a long long time - perhaps 24 million light years.

i was nowhere near ready to leave when the time came, but i returned home with a new perspective; a new sense of what's important in this life. this lifetime is such a blip on the universal map. but that doesn't make it insignificant or unimportant. i think being such a short burst in time makes this life all the more important. don't waste it. make it count. burn as bright and as hot as you dare before you're gone and that nebulous is still sitting out there in the universe somewhere, waiting to become a star.

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

50X50






i turned 45 last week. since my 30th, i've had difficulty with milestone-type birthdays. they seem to be times to reflect. when i reflect, i have a hard time bringing up all my accomplishments. i tend to focus on all the things i've NOT accomplished (yes, i know i need therapy!). so, i did some thinking about all the things i've talked about for years and years and all the things i've been afraid to talk about and all the things i didn't even know i wanted to do until i really thought about it. and i started a list of 50 things i want to do by the time i reach my 50th birthday. i'm not quite to 50 items yet, but maybe you can help me. are there things you've heard me talk about a million times that i haven't done yet? there are some items that should be on the list but are not included becuase i don't think they'll be financially viable in the next 5 years - like studying yoga in india and going on a meditation retreat to tibet. that will be on my 60X60 list once the kids are safely raised and are productive citizens.

comment - let me know what would be on your list. i will continue adding to mine and let you know how i'm doing.

50X50

  1. Build a regular blog
  2. Start an Etsy shop
  3. Dive at the Great Barrier Reef or visit the Galapagos Islands (provided it is financially possible!)
  4. Get out of debt
  5. Learn to play tennis (with Ray)
  6. Learn to play golf
  7. Learn to screen print
  8. Become comfortable in my body
  9. Really work toward getting my body healthy
  10. Get a tattoo
  11. See Al Green Preach
  12. Take my kids to a bluegrass festival
  13. Hike in Big Bend
  14. Stay up for more than 3 seconds on water skis
  15. Cook a prime rib
  16. Pull a skier on the boat
  17. Finish my book
  18. Be able to do Wheel again – with grace
  19. Get the children’s books that are in my head onto paper and out to publishers
  20. Maintain an organic garden thru an entire summer
  21. Travel for a year with the kids
  22. Renew my yoga practice
  23. Simplify my stuff
  24. Simplify my life (this one is loaded and probably needs much more definition!)
  25. Regularly practice random acts of kindness – have it be part of my everyday thoughts
  26. Be kind to myself without thinking about it
  27. See the Grand Canyon
  28. See Orcas in their natural home
  29. Get my office organized
  30. See the fireflies in the Great Smokey Mtns in TN
  31. Take a road trip with my mom
  32. Learn to knit (it may not be possible!!!)
  33. See Asleep at the Wheel in concert
  34. Take my kids to a bluegrass festival
  35. Teach the boys yoga
  36. Make daily meditation a priority
  37. Give up the foods that make me sick